I want to talk about you
I renamed 'I want to talk about you' about four times before landing on this one. I still don't know if I'm sold on it, but, it feels kind of fitting. and, the truth is, I do want to talk about you. good and bad. I want to talk about you. I pray that we all have people in our lives that we can't stop yapping about. love is a fire kept alive by the words you speak when they aren't around to speak or listen. love whispers. it can be loud, but the greatest love, to me, comes quietly in ways you don't see, but always feel. you feel covers pulled up over your shoulder because you fell asleep on the sofa (again). you feel love when you realize you misplaced your keys, only to find them placed neatly by the door, just for you. the absence of love is cold - because a blanket never makes its way to your shoulder unless you put it there. the absence of love is messy - because you still can't find your damn keys. 'I want to talk about you' is for days when you smoke just a liiiittle too much and want to walk through the park. maybe you want to grieve, maybe want to reminisce, or maybe you just want to feed some fuckin' birds. just don't let people make themselves feel welcome & comfortable in your complacency. you do yourself no favors when you stunt your growth for the sake of others' wellbeing without putting yourself first. an empty cup can't (re)fill others.
collective message:
ok... I was NOT going to do another reading until maybe later in the week, but I kept channeling Your Needs, My Needs by Noah Kahan so it got to the point where I needed to pull some cards on it. immediately we start with the oracle card that says "notice predictable rhythms". following up with the last collective reading, this is a message of letting go. there may be a lot of feelings attached to this: guilt, sadness, feeling like you're abandoning someone or feeling obligated to care for them. you might even feel like you're mourning a loss. in some ways, you are. you're allowed to grieve whatever you're struggling to walk away from in whatever time that you need. this connection you're holding on to is costing you too much of your self-respect and esteem. you don't have to give in to this anymore. don't give up your heart and your hope for the brief glimmers of humanity that you see in this person. realize that the part you play enables your predictable patterns, but you are capable of breaking them. you could really love and care about this connection, but you might also feel like you're trapped or helpless, or like your situation is hopeless. as much as it hurts, it takes two to tango, so remember that you are also playing a part in keeping yourself stagnant and in a cycle that is making you unhappy. remember that you have the power to change your situation. you do not need to embrace complacency to make the people around you feel more comfortable or at home. this message has two channeled songs because another one popped up as I was writing this:
Your Needs, My Needs - Noah Kahan
Unknown/Nth - Hozier
heavyyyy Capricorn, Gemini, or Scorpio energy (all placements but getting energy especially for sun + venus placements) but can apply to any sign!!
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